October 17, 2014

Through the Eyes of My Son With Autism

My mom loves me.  Even when I kick and scream, refuse to eat, or try to hurt myself when I’m mad.  One time right before bed I slapped her right across her face.  She didn’t get mad or yell though.  She told me “no” and put my hands by my side.  She still snuggled with me and read my books to me.

Sometimes I like to take mom by the hand and drag her around the house for fun.  If don’t whine, she does it…even when her eyes are droopy.  Sometimes I walk her back and forth, back and forth, back and forth.  I give her my biggest toothy grin.  She calls me a jokester, laughs and tickles me.

When I don’t know how to tell mom what I want, sometimes I scream and cry.  She doesn’t care if we’re right in the middle of the grocery store.  She waits for me to calm down before she helps me.  I know she knows what I want.  If she would just give it to me I would be quiet.  She doesn’t give in though…even when people are watching.

My mom plays with me a lot.  She protects me.  She kisses me all over my face…a lot…like all the time.  Even when I am trying to do important stuff like run around or watch Yo Gabba Gabba.

I show my mom that I love her.  I kiss her, snuggle with her, and I give her a big hug when she picks me up from school.  Someday I will tell my mom, “I love you;” because I do.  I just don’t know how to say the words yet.

To read this post through mom's eyes click here.


  1. It knew you were that special loving person when I met you!!! We clicked instantly!!!!! I knew you were going to be the perfect mom when you got pregnant!!!! But perfect is not even the words to describe you now!! You are an inspiration! an inspiration to SO many people and not just people with kids that have special needs! The way that you have carried yourself in the past couple of yrs is just AMAZING !!!! Just like you said and I totally agree on this... GOD gave you Brandon because he knows what you are capable of... And girl... You BLOW my mind and I love you sooooo much!!!!!!!
    (November 7, 2014 at 7:00pm)

  2. Michelle Stewart NeptuneJanuary 14, 2015 at 12:12 PM

    that is so beautiful Rachael...words you and Brandon will cherish as he gets older and phases fall by the wayside and new ones fill your pages. Keep writing! What a lucky boy he is to have you as his mommy!
    (October 17, 2014 at 2:17pm)

    1. Thank you Michelle!! :) That really means a lot to me. There is so much from even the last couple years that I wish I had written down. But at least I got still started early!
      (October 17, 2014 at 2:45pm)


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